Saturday, May 29, 2004

PUI Blows...

Went to the mall just to hang out with my friend Marcus. When I arrived, they had "Pump It Up" set up for playing. Marcus had already played it before he was on the clock, but I got to be the second person to play it.

It is horrible. It's not just that it is hard for me to play. See, it's like trying to learn Korean when I was in the middle of learning Japanese. I say those two languages, because DDR is from Japan and I think PUI is the Korean version.

Anyway, where as DDR had simple left, right, up, down buttons. PUI has left-up diagonal, left-down diagonal, right-down diagonal, right-up diagonal, and center buttons. So it was really confusing trying to play.

Now, I know I should be happy for something more challenging, and one would say it is sad that I prefer something so simple as DDR. But that is not the reason I dislike PUI.

I think we got the newest version of PUI, but I don't care for the song selections. A lot of pretty songs, but none that really have a sound that makes me want to dance. And as I danced and watched others dance, the moves did not feel/look fluid or stylin. It wasn't sexy, just goofy. So I disliked that. The feel of the game is all wrong.

What it did have going for it though, was the High Definition screen it came with and the nice anime scenes in the back ground. I still miss DDR though. I really hope they get enough complaints they will replace PUI with DDR.

Heh, Marcus was working at the arcade when I came in, but his boss was there, and his boss's boss was there, and his boss's boss's boss was there. So he couldn't talk to me too much. Then they all went to the carosel on the other side of the mall. While I was talking to him, he needed to get something from the back room and told me to follow him. On the way back there, we both got this feeling in out minds and very slightly glanced over our shoulders and saw all three bosses. At the same time we both turned to "Carn Evil" and as I grabbed a gun he kneeled down to open the machine and said, "Was it this one?" I replied, "Yeah, it ate my quarters." So he gave me some credit and I started playing. As he shut the machine and stood up, he acted like he had just seen the three bosses and went, "Oh! Hey guys."

Man, we are good. Heh. I think maybe we are both NewTypes....

Also, I got a small pay check today. $99.12... Well... My average pay check is $150, so it isn't as bad, but still not much... Dang it, I am never going to get ahead. I really need a better job with more hours...

See, I want to move into the city and get an apartment with my friend Marcus. That way I wouldn't have to drive 25 minutes and use all that gas every time I have to go to work or see a friend...

Not to mention, I am trying to convince Marcus and my friend Ryan to be partners with me, get a loan or something, and but this empty building that has been unused for 10 years right next to the mall. I have a plan of what to do with it, and the other two like it... But how will we get the money we need and what can we do with my plan?

Costume update... I had to rip off all the metal to my arm because it contracted and I was unable to get my arm back in. Now I am going to try again with poster board cut outs. Maybe that will work a little bit more. Sucks that I threw away all that metal after all the cuts and gashes it gave me.

I still need to complete the collar. It is giving me a fuss. Doesn't want to come out like I planned... Sadly. Luckily, my mother said she would finish my pants for me, so that is good. And I got the bandana done, so that is out of the way... Just need to figure out what to do with the shoes now... And find gold spray paint for those poster board pieces... I have Sunday evening, then Tuesday-Thursday morning to get this thing done...

Next year... I hope the costume I picked out to make will not be so hard to do... It shouldn't be. I also have a summer project to work on, to add to my growing style and add a winter line to my style. Heh. Already bought the first pieces to my summer project. This shouldn't be too much of a hassle.

Manga search update... Still cannot find "Trigun Maximum Vol.1" and it is ticking me off. But I did pick up "Chrono Crusades Vol. 1" today. It's title was similar to the style of a game's title called "Chrono Trigger." Trigger is my favorite RPG game ever made, so I was wondering if this was based off of it. It isn't, but it was still a good choice.

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Lessons On Drawing, Now For Tennis

So glad that work was actually enjoyable today. I didn't have slave work to do, and the time went by quickly without being over bearing or stressful. I quickly made my daily goal, then plus some. I engraved those and went to work on stocking the shipment we got in. Not much else to do after that.

My friend Marcus, or Maniac, came by and decided to give me a lesson in how to draw like him. It was great, cause I love his style. He draws my web comics for me, even though my partner never works on the website they are supposed to be shown on. Anyway, that was entertaining and took up a good hour till he left.

Before he left though, he let me know that were are to spend the night at a friend's house the night before we leave for A-Kon, so we can all get up and head out at the same time the next morning. So I am glad he let me know I am doing that. Also, he went to practice DDR today at the Plex, a really large arcade basically... Anyway, he said he was really bad at first. In other words, to me he was dancing like a master instead of a god. Heh. But he said he got back 83% of his skills. Thursday he will practice more and pick a song to use at the competition.

After I got off, I stopped by the mall's theater where I used to work to visit the few friends I worked with that are still there. One let me see pictures of her in her prom dress. She looked really good. And then I found out one of my other really good friends and the 5th member of my non-existent band is moving the day I get back from A-Kon... That blows...

On my way home, I stopped by the Super Wal-Mart. I picked up a box of 20 tennis balls... It was all they had. See, my friend Ryan (or Rion, which is basically the Japanese pronunciation of Ryan. He isn't Japanese, just likes how they say his name) has been watching this anime called "Prince of Tennis" lately. I am sure the title explains what the anime is about. Now he wants to learn how to play.

I said I could teach him. I used to be in a class for two years, and was always the best player in my classes. I never joined the team though, I didn't want to miss school days and fall behind... I know... Most people would want to. Leave me alone. So I needed tennis balls to teach him. I will teach him tomorrow after school lets out.

This will be fun. I haven't played a real tennis match in years. The last time I tried to play a real game, I never got to finish it... I was playing against my at the time fiance`e and every time we went to switch sides of the court we started to make out... So... Yeah. That game was never finished.

Also, back to DDR. I found this news article. Check it out! Video Game Helps Players Lose Weight I already knew this. It's part of why I used to play so often, but I likes reading this article.

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Saturday, May 22, 2004

Illegal Street Racing! Woo-Hoo!

Okay, so I am not really street racing... I don't think poor Yuki would be able to handle that kind of punishmentas he is now.

Recently I got a hold of "Midnight Club II" and "SpyHunter 2" for my PlayStation 2. "Midnight Club II" is basically street racing/drifting at night time in L.A., Paris, and Tokyo. I can't wait to get to the Tokyo level. It's so much fun though. I love the whole racing through the city and so on. My thumb hurts a lot now too. I am not used to holding down a button with a lot of force for hours at a time.

It's great though, if you know me, you know in game I like to attack the NPCs (none playable characters)and kill off the innocent. In this game though, I am out of character and try to avoid the people walking in the streets. But even though I try, I've killed like 100 people so far. Heh, so great.

And I don't even mind going through thr same race 10-12 times till I win. I am learning techniques and studying the layout. It's so much fun. What's cool is, nothing happens the same wat twice. Every time I restart the race, the CPU cars go different routes and different cars are driving where they weren't the last time. So you have to be prepared.

Then in "SpyHunter 2" I get to chase cars with villans with my sweet ride and shoot them down and blow them up. So much fun. Plus, one of my all time favorite singers wrote a new song for the theme of this game. Her name is Vanessa Carlton and the song is "Dark Carnival." First of all, I love "dark" things. Secondly, I have a thing about loving carnivals and the carnival music. Thirdly, Vanessa Carlton is absolutely great.

Now, all I need is "Need For Speed Underground." It's another illegal street racing game. I've been told it is the best game of it's kind yet. Currenlty, I have a friend trying to get it for me as payment for taking him home all the time, especially at 1am. I hope he gets it soon.

As for my costume. Stuck at 73%. My friend said she had to work at 5 but would try to get someone to cover for her. At 7 I went to her place of work to tell her she can come over at midnight to help me out, but when I got there they said she got someone to work for her. So I called her house and her mother said she went to the mall... I didn't appreciate that. And she wonders why I won't date her or "do anything" with her... ::shakes head::

So tomorrow I will go get the last of the things I need and then come home, and page my sister. My sister said she would help me out with the costume since our "friend" did that trash to me.

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Thursday, May 20, 2004

Curses! I Have But One Hand To Use!

Because I was called into work yesterday, I did not have time to go grab the last of the supplies I need to make this costume, and I didn't feel like going anywhere today. I shall do it tomorrow though for sure.

Tonight, I attempted to glue the metal pieces of Vincent's left arm on to the guantlet I made today. I took jean material, wrapped it around my arm, sewed it together. Then I hand stitched the arm part to a glove.

Well, my hand needs to be in the gauntlet to give shape so the metal pieces can be glued into the correct shapes... Sadly, I did not calculate the glue seeping through the material onto my skin... So now the back of my hand is burning... Then I realised, I will not be able to complete this alone, for trying to do it one handed is impossible.

Most of the pieces I need to put rubber bands on so they hold in place, otherwise they will never stay put. I can't take care of that one handed... So I asked my sister to ask a friend of ours if she would come over after school to help me out. Hopefully my friend is not working after school and will be able to.

If she does, I will first take her with me to get the last of my supplies. After that, we shall come back and I will use her to fix something on my cape I needed help with, and then we shall work on my hand.... cause I am going to have to sit in that gauntlet for a long time to keep the form of my hand while the glue dries.

Sadly, I also need to figure out how to form the last piece of metal on Vincent's arm... It sticks out, making a dome like shape... I need to work on that too... ::sigh:: I love CosPlaying!!! This is so great! I enjoy a good challenge!

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Wednesday, May 19, 2004

CosPlay no Vash

That is Japanese for "Vash's CosPlay" or the "CosPlay of Vash" for all you who probably thought it was Spanish I was speaking in up there... ::gives you a disgusted look, shakes head::

So I am getting closer to finishing this costume. Sadly, I did not meet my goal of 90% finished by the end of Monday. Currently I would say I am 73% complete. Tomorrow I have to go out and pick up a few extra things for detail and so on. I hope this turns out really well.

I called my place of work to get my schedule. I worked on the 15th and there was no schedule for the next two weeks up. I didn't hear from them on Sunday or Monday, so I called today... I do not work until Sunday... Then only two more times after that for the rest of this month... Not cool... My check will be so small... I hate my job... She says she is giving me a rest before she schedules me for twice my normal hours. In other words, 25 hour weeks... I know that doesn't sound like much, but I usually get 12 hours, so it is great for me... But you are right, it still isn't enough... I need to look for a second job tomorrow too... ::cries::

Sunday, I saw a rooster in out backyard. When I announced this, my parents just ignored me and laughed. I said, "No! There is a rooster!" My mother's response was, "It's called a Grackle." Then my father, who was looking out the window, goes, "No... He is right." So my mother looks and goes, "Wow..."

So I watched this rooster bob it's head as it walks around and tries to eat things... Then suddenly... and urge to attack it was a sword came over me... For all you Zelda fans... You know what I am talking about, and you know what the consequences would be... But then it FLEW on to the fence... I thought they couldn't fly... So now I had the urge to grab it's feet and make it fly my to places... "Legend of Zelda: Link to the Past" fans know about this...

Oh well, it shortly fell into the neighbor's yard and I went back to doing nothing.

Now then, I have decided to take all the CDs I ever made and make a back up Data CD with all the songs. In case I ever let someone borrow one again and it gets destroyed, like the the two I lent out... Now I will not have to risk redownloading them again... But... I only have Windows Media Player to rip my CDs and it turns everything into the crappy .wma files... So I have a trial converter where I can only convert one .wma into an .mp3

I have 15 CDs left with 17-26 songs on them... It took me three full hours to do two CDs.... ::cries:: Guess I know what I will be doing this week off along side finishing my costume. Busy, busy, busy...

Got to talk to my "Sweet M" today. Not long though. She was just checking her e-mail. It was nice though, cause I didn't know she had got on and she IMed me first. I liked that. But sadly she is sick and possibly with strep throat... I feel so bad, I hope she gets better soon... That's why our conversation was so short, she wanted to go rest to help get better.

Hmm... Taiko drums will be at A-Kon!! They are Japanese drummers... Drumming you have never seen before. I know they are amazing to watch, and I can't wait to see them live!

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Sunday, May 16, 2004

I Am Samurai

As soon as I got up and come down stairs to make breakfast and wake up, my father put on "The Last Samurai". I love this movie so very much. It's so touching and makes me proud. See, I am part Japanese, and I am the descendant of a Samurai. Anyway, back to the movie. I've never been a Tom Cruise fan. Hate just about every movie he has ever been in. I personally don't think he can act.

In this movie though... I was impressed. It seemed he actually learned to act for this part. Heh. Seriously though, he was very good in it. Everyone was. When I first heard of this movie, I was skeptical... Seeing only a teaser poster, I thought Tom Cruise was playing a Japanese man... He doesn't even look Japanese... Then I read he played an American in Japan, so I was down with that. Seeing the actual movie though... That was a trip.

Like I said though, I am from a samurai decent. If things were different, I could have been training to be a samurai since I was like 3. See, in Japan, the samurai were like the nobles of England. So technically, I am of noble blood. Sad that that means nothing now...

Anyway, the message this movie portrayed is just so... noble. I cry each time I see it. This is my heritage going on. I know most samurai became corrupt and treated peasants really badly, but I know there were some respectable ones. Besides, the code of the samurai (bushido) is just so... wonderful... Like the knight's chivalry times 10. I am proud of who I am...

Heh, my grandmother told me a story once about my Great Great Great Grandfather that she heard when she was young. He was one of the last samurai in Japan... I liked to say he is that samurai in "The Last Samurai" that won't die. He got shot several times then got on a horse to fight and shot some more. I liked him. At least now I know where my stubborn side came from.

Back to the story I was told. See, when the Meiji Emperor took over, he wanted Japan to be Westernized and Modern... So he destroyed the samurai and the symbols of the samurai and old ways. One symbol of the old ways is the top knot men wore. Men wore very long hair, so they would tie the length into a bundle and place it on top of their heads. To be "modernized" and "Westernized" the emperor ordered the people to cut their top knots and wear short hair. Samurai were against changing into the new ways, so refused to cut their hair, which was very illegal.

Now that you've had that little lesson, I will get back to the point. My grandmother told me that my Great Great Great Grandfather refused to cut his top knot, so his own sons had to hold him down and cut it off of him. It's kind of funny that he was that stubborn, but sad at the same time. I am sure it pained his sons to do so, but they did not want their father killed or arrested...

Anyway, please go see "The Last Samurai" if you have not yet. It really is a wonderful movie. But as for the rest of my day? A whole lot of nothing. After the movie I went to work and we were really busy. Got nothing personal done, and couldn't even finish engraving every thing I was so swamped...

Now I am listening to Do As Infinity. They are a huge band in Japan. They are going to have a concert at A-Kon in two weeks. This will be their very first performance in America. I am happy to be apart of that historical event. I am also looking forward to hearing Nami Tamaki there. She is an over night sensation in Japan. 15 year-old Pop singer who won awards for at least one of the two themes songs to an award winning anime series called "Gundam Seed". Impressive much?

This A-Kon is going to be great. It will be my first to attend. I've wanted to for years, but was never able to. Sadly, my worthless older brother will be there too with another group... I hope I do not see him. Anyway, I am going to CosPlay at A-Kon. In fact, it's the major reason I want to go.

CosPlay is Costume Play. We take a favorite anime or video game character and make a costume from scratch to look like that character, then wear the costume at the convention. I love doing it, and this will be my first public appearance in one of my costumes. I am CosPlaying as Vincent Valentine from Final Fantasy VII. It's not done yet. I hope to have it 95% done after Sunday and Monday. So far it is... 20% complete. I also plan to make fake blood to add a special touch to the costume I don't think anyone else has ever done...

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Friday, May 14, 2004

Good Bike, For Falling Apart

Apparently it was a good thing that my bike feel apart when it did. Shortly after I came back in, the door bell rang. I ran as fast as I could to the door, afraid my mother had been awaken by the sound.

My first thought was it had to be one of my sister's friends. All my friends that live in this are live 15-20 miles away. There was no way one of them would drive all that way in the middle of the night and be stupid enough to ring the freakin doorbell at 1am in the morning.

When I opened the door, it turned out to be this guy I know. We are kind of friends, but he is more my sister's friend. Apparently he was down the street playing video games and the house he was at had no car, so he knew I would be up and wanted to know if he could have a ride home.

It was a cold night with the cold front, well... For normal people it was cold I guess. Also, he was borrowing his friend's PS2 that he had in a backpack and didn't want that stolen while he walked home. I didn't mind, so I gave him a ride. See, good thing my bike broke. I was able to do a good deed.

While I was taking him home, I passed a parked Cop Car. So the cop decided to follow me. I wasn't worried. I was doing nothing wrong. Speed limit was 30, I was doing 25. The cop got right on my butt. I didn't appreciate that at all. My friend was a little worried though. He said he knew if he tried to walk home, these cops would have arrested him and said he stole that PS2 (I was afraid there was more than just a PS2 in there though, if you know what I mean.) and he had just gotten out of jail recently.

When I came to a blinking yellow light, instead of going on like I am allowed to I came to a stop, looked both ways then proceeded. This time, I only went 20mph. I think perhaps I fooled the cop into thinking I was an old geezer driving. He got tired of following me and zoomed past me going 35-40mph. I hate the cops in this town, they are all corrupt scum bags it seems...

Anyway, shortly after I got home my friend Kate IMed me. She let me know that she was okay now and appreciated my concern. I was glad to hear she was doing better, but I still feel bad she went through what she did... So I am still a little concerned about her... I hope to get to talk to her some more today.

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Wrong Dennys and Unlocking Kingdoms

This morning I rolled myself out of bed at like 1:30pm... Took a shower and sat down to play some more "Kingdom Hearts." I finally beat it today... Okay, so I know that is no big deal since I beat it before. When it first came out, a friend let me borrow his PS2, memory card, and game. I beat it back then, but this time it is all my stuff, so it is still special in some way.

I absolutely love that game though. I still need to do a lot of things though to truly be finished. I've never beaten the Ice Titan, found all 99 Dalmation Puppies, found all the Trinity Markers, not was I ever able to make the Ultimate Weapon... Though I have beaten Sephiroth before, I need to do that on my game now... So anyway, I need to take care off all of that then rebeat the game. Woo!

Also, I picked up a new game today. "Custom Robo" is the name and it is for the Nintendo GameCube. It's looks really good. I play who has this little robot that I can customize to my liking, and have him fight other robots. Very cool. I look forward to playing that.

I got called in early for work though. While I was beating "Kingdom Hearts," my manager left a message on my cell. We have a Regional Manager coming Thursday, so she asked me to come in early to help her out or she may never finish. Since it was a good excuse this time, I happily came to help.

As soon as I got into my car to go though, it began to down poor like crazy. I honestly could not see past the front of my car... I kept driving though, but was about ready to turn around and tell her there was no way I was driving in that. As soon as I got on the Highway though, it stopped... Strange weather...

So I come to work, help her out, she leaves, I do my chores she leaves then work on designing more characters. My friend Marcus who illustrates my Web Comic for me stopped by and decided to draw my new characters in his style. Much appreciated that. Then he went off to be a social butterfly. Then my friend Ryan appears and talks to me for a few hours.

At 8 though, 5 customers appear. Sadly the one that arrived first decided she needed to tell EVERYONE that came up to the store her life story. Never thought I would be rid of her! Because of her, and helping 4 other people, I didn't get any engraving done... So I left that all for my manager in the morning...

Before Ryan showed up, my friend Ashley and her friend Bethany showed up to talk to me for a minute. Bethany wanted to know if I knew anyone over 21 who would by her alcohol... I said I'll try to call someone when I close. Ryan is 22 though, so I asked him instead. He said he would for a price...

So we waiting at our cars for Ashley and Bethany. When they arrived, they decided Bethany didn't need alcohol on a Tuesday. Just then Marcus drove over and asked if we wanted to follow him to Wal-Mart. Sounded good. While Bethany and Ashley took off in one direction, the rest of us got in out cars and went another... We saw the girls go past us with their way, but Marcus took a short cut, that Ryan and I followed. We went "Initial D" style through an old parking lot. Much fun.

We beat the girls there by 3 minutes. They got stuck at a long red light. Anyway, we hung out there for a short while then left. Marcus and Ryan went home, but Bethany and Ashley wanted to go to Denny's. I did too... Sadly, I only knew of one Denny's and went to the wrong one.

I finally got to their and we hung out and talked for a while. I didn't get home till 1:30. I had a lot of fun. I haven't gotten to hang out with Ashley in a long time, because some Jerk the two of us know nearly killed her's and I'd friendship completely... It's slowly getting better though.

I do feel bad though. I asked to speak to my friend Kate tonight online, and never showed up... I hope she'll forgive me... I don't get asked to hang out with people often and I enjoy hanging with people in the middle of the night...

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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Work, Then Owned By Sephiroth

I awoke early this morning because I had to open at my job. I didn't care if I was late though, so I treated my self to cooking and actual breakfast for me, then I got ready and left. I must say though, today was the first time I enjoyed my job in a while now.

The mall was all but dead, so it was very quiet. I put on my CD of a Japanese band I like, and jammed to that. I took care of some easy chores that I made a game to as I put things away. I had two customers that were friendly and easy to handle. Then just before I was to get off, 5 people decided they needed to buy things, so I made my store daily goal. Woo-hoo!

Also, during the period of time there were no costumers or chores, and I was just jamming to my beats, I was able to design a new anime character. I like how he turned out and his name is stylin'!

So I leave work and stop by the Super Wal-Mart and get a padded seat for my bike. I want to start riding my bike again and try to get back into better shape, but that seat hurts so bad... Not pleasant. A week ago I bought two of those undeflateable tubes... So I am ready to rock. I think I want to spiff up my bike like guys do their cars...

Anyway, so I get home and I change out of my work clothing and into my sexy clothes. ::wink:: I turn on my new PlayStation 2 (Yes, I just got one recently) and went back to playing "Kingdom Hearts." I love this game. Beat it before, but had to play it again. I finally unlocked the fight with Sephiroth... That man... is greatness. From the moment the fight began, he took me for a ride. He doesn't play around! I knew I was too weak to face him yet, but... I just had to see that entrance!

After playing KH forever, I decided to get online and talk to a friend of mine... That's what I have been doing since... Except I asked my friend Kate her opinion on what I should do about that girl that "winked" at me on Match.com... She told me to go for it, so I signed up for a 3-day free trial and sent her an e-mail... Let's see where this goes... ::takes a deep breath::

And that is about all of my day. Till next time, My Naughties.

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Monday, May 10, 2004

All Things Have A Beginning

But I do not believe that all things come to an end...

So I have decided to start an actual blog along side my on-going (yeah... About that... ::rubs back of head ashamely:: ) to talk about my personal life. I know at first I didn't like the idea, but... It kind of grew on me, especially since I can't really talk about everything I want to talk about with most of my friends. The ones I can talk to about everything, I don't get to talk to very often... So this might help me out a little by letting it all out in this form. And besides, I am a writer, so I can't write something if no one is going to read it...

As for the name of this blog. I love to make people laugh, and it in a way "fuels" me when I hear someone laughing cause of something I do or say. Especially my close friends or family... So I tend to call my self the Jester. But... though it is the job of a jester to make others laugh and goof around... A jester isn't always smiling... A jester can shed a tear too... and that is what this is about. My joys, my fears, my tears.

So I shall start off with work. I work at a little kiosk in my local mall. The name of the store is Things Remembered. I engrave on metal and glass items... It's a pretty good job, except for the fact that the kiosk sucks cause nothing is where it should be and half the time I either can't find or don't have the item a customer wants... And corporate wonders why we can never meet our goals....

It's driving me crazy, and causing much stress. I am not easily stressed. Usually, the only real way to get me stressed is if I am angry about something. So in other words, working there makes me quite angry and that is followed by stress. I don't like stress at all, so I beginning to go crazy... Mostly, I just wish I had someone to work with. It would make the work load easier, and I'd have someone to talk to. Being alone for 6 hours watching everyone walk by is not style'n at all...

I also get little hours, so not much money... I am about to search for a second job so I can get more money... A second job also means less free time sadly... But I need the money. After a foolish thing I did last year, all my money is gone. I can't even attend college, and I refuse to get a loan. Being in debt is not my idea of sexy.

What is a Jester to do? Oh, I know. Take over the world. Yes... I believe that will be true greatness once I realize that life long dream of becoming the Emperor of the World!!!

But what is the world if I have no one to share it with? Currently I am single... I was engaged to an angel for a very long time... But during a long time apart my angel was kicked out of her body by a succubus. I did not fit into the plans of this succubus, so now I am alone.

I joined this online dating service a few months ago called Match.com. It's all right. I don't see many potential significant others for me though. Those I were interested in never respond to me. One girl contacted me first. We went on a date and talk most nights... But sadly... She just doesn't seem to be the one for me. She is fun and a good friend, but not what I am wanting in a girl...

Recently, another girl contacted me, or "winked", at me... I "winked" back, but she lives between 100-150 miles from me. I don't want another long distance relationship. I need someone very close by so we can see each other often and hang out a lot... You know?

I don't know what to do. I dislike this being alone thing. It is not cool at all. But I hope it all changes very soon. As well as the previously mentioned money situation. Tomorrow I am spending $50 on a new video game. Next month I am spending around $100 at a convention... Not to mention gas prices keep going up and up... This world and it's misguided ideas of government sicken me... I shall put and end to it all... ::works on his take over plans::

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